Saturday, April 13, 2013

But.... But I think.... I think I'm Beautiful.

Several days ago I wrote this journal entry after coming home from a party. After pondering this, I thought I might share it to give an honest perspective on women and body image. If any of you have answers to my questions - feel free to share!

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Confession: I don’t want to lose weight. I’m happy with who I am. I think I’m beautiful and pretty and strong. I do want to keep getting healthier and stronger and leaner, but I consider myself a strong, healthy young woman. And I think I’m beautiful.

Seeing other young women who are thinner than me doesn’t necessarily make me want to be them - but it does make me feel guilty. Could they see my belly poke out a little bit under my shirt? Maybe I shouldn’t have eaten that cookie. But I like cookies and I did a good, hard workout today. I wore a tight shirt thinking it looked nice but then I felt self-conscious. Maybe I should have curled my hair. But I was busy doing homework! Maybe I should have worn skinny jeans like the rest - but I don’t have any that fit right (they’re too big) and I wanted to wear my capris for the first time this spring.

That guilt - why did I feel guilty when I left the house thinking I looked nice and feeling healthy and excited about my new hot pink tennis shoes? Why did I smile into the mirror at home and then feel so self-conscious at the party? Why do I feel guilty for not hitting a false ideal that isn’t me? That’s just it. It isn’t me. This is me. I like me. In fact, I like me a lot. I’m a little vain about liking me.

I’m a perfectly healthy weight and my mother-in-law keeps telling me I look rather thin. But I wasn’t as thin as some of the other girls - you know, those girls who aren’t me.

Why, for goodness’ sake, did I feel like that?

Friday, April 12, 2013

Letting Teachers Teach: Publishing Classroom-level Data Would be Unfair to Teachers

The arguments over how to improve our educational system and our teachers are never ending. The Utah State Office of Education is struggling with one such conflict on how to deal with standardized testing data. The Salt Lake Tribune reported that one Utah law directs the Office to include testing data in their online reports all the way down to the classroom level, which means that teachers would be identified. However, another law directs the Office to keep teacher evaluation materials confidential. Some would say that parents have a right to this information about their children's teachers. I would argue that releasing these numbers without information on context of the classrooms and students the teachers were dealing with is unfair to teachers.

Let me first attempt to establish what “fairness” means, if that's possible. It is, most primitively, a gut reaction. It is a subconscious moral conception common in our culture and society. It is a feeling that something, somehow, is not equal among several parts. In this case, I would argue that the lack of “fairness” is based on an unequal distribution of rights. The “right” of the parent is outweighing the “right” of the teacher to honest and correct evaluation and protection from defamation. It is also unequal procedurally. The parents are awarded procedures to protect their rights, but the teacher is awarded no such procedure.

The standardized testing data that would be provided for different classroom teachers are only numbers. State Senator Stephen Urquhart, who supports this policy, said, “People are not stupid. They understand there are many different data points and they can use those however they want” (link). No one is saying that parents are stupid. However, statistics can be easily misconstrued and do not relate the number of students in a classroom or the demographics of those students. Not everyone will interpret the numbers correctly, and certainly there will be misunderstandings of the many factors that go into standardized test scores.

One factor that affects scores is whether a teacher takes on students with learning disabilities or other difficulties. Patti Harrington, a representative of the Utah School Boards Association, worried that “teachers who now take on special education students, kids learning English and children with other challenges, might veer away from working with such pupils in the future if they know they’ll be judged for their lower scores” (link). We shouldn't be penalizing teachers for working with difficult students.

Classroom sizes are also an important consideration. A friend of mine who works in a Utah school recently related to me that a fellow teacher was so popular among parents at her school that at the beginning of the school year several parents had their children moved into her class. While class sizes were equal beforehand, she now had about 30 students while another teacher in her grade only had around 20. Class sizes can affect grades considerably. Shouldn't this informaiton be considered in evaluating teachers?

A recent editorial by Ann Florence, a Utah teacher, pointed out several other concerns. She noted that a computer shortage in her school caused teachers to administer tests during different weeks, which means some teachers could have considerably more teaching time before tests than others.

Florence also noted that her school's students had considerably more support at home than many others. She wrote: “Most of our students are supported at home by educated and employed parents and have had childhoods filled with music lessons, sports, and vacations. We freely admit that our students' test results do not truly reflect our teaching skills." In this context, it may be acceptable to compare between teachers at this school, but it would be a shame if parents compared teachers across schools.

Publishing classroom-level testing data without context or background is unfair to teachers, especially with the stated purpose of parents being able to make judgments from them. It is unfair to consider only the rights of parents without giving consideration to the rights of teachers to honest and correct evaluation, protection from defamation, and due procedure.

Greet Him with a Smile

              I came across this quote when reading excerpts from the LDS Nauvoo Relief Society Minutes Book a while ago. This morning I decided to share.

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Opposing Same-Sex Marriage

The link below is an amazing article that opposes same-sex marriage on ground of reason rather than religion. It is written by a gay man. While I certainly believe religion has a part to play in this discourse, I was so impressed by his logical stance on the definition of marriage and family.

I’m Gay and I Oppose Same-Sex Marriage | Public Discourse

Republicans Struggling... at BYU???




    Oh, the irony. A couple of days ago I received a Political Science (PlSc) Department email from the department chair. He was emailing everyone for a very important reason: He couldn’t find anyone willing to head the BYU College Republicans. I laughed. Not because I’m a Democrat, but it was just terribly ironic.


    Apparently, the College Republicans club has been inactive for several months because of the lack of good officers (this seems somewhat reminiscent of the national scene??). Apparently, there have been a few offers from non-political science students, but because the club is hosted by the PlSc department, either the President or several officers must be PlSc majors. I guess there isn’t anyone who studies politics who wants to take on the role.


    It gets better: The department chair ended the email by noting that the BYU College Democrats have had a very active and successful year and offered contact info for the club president to anyone interested.


    Of all the places for the GOP to struggle - at BYU. Oh, the irony. I laughed. My husband laughed. And then we sighed deep sighs and griped about the horrible fate of the Republican party. We simply need to remember the good ole days of Ronald Reagan. Actually, that was before I was born - but I’ve heard it was great.

On Marriage

I support this:

LDS Family Proclamation


And I support this:

Salt Lake City Non-Discrimination Ordinance


nondiscrimination-law-slider

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Obama is NOT the devil. At least, I really doubt it.

See the blonde on the right? That's me!
    I’m Baaa-aaaccckkk!! For those who don’t know me personally, for the past two months I’ve been interning at the Utah State Legislature for their annual General Session. When you’re working as legislative staff, there is basically a rule that you “don’t talk to anyone about anything at anytime, or anywhere - ever.” Well, that is a bit of an exaggeration; but blogging about inside knowledge would probably be a no-no. It was my job to let the legislators do the talking. 

    It was so exciting to work as the intern for Utah’s Speaker of the House, Rep. Becky Lockhart. On the last night of the session, it was so hard to leave the Capitol - even though it was 1:30am. After I packed up my bag and put on my coat, I walked by the House chamber and glanced in at all the Representatives and their families milling about, packing up and chatting with friends. Then I remembered something: I love politics. In the midst of all the bills and emails and memos, I think I briefly forgot that what I was doing was what I had always wanted to do. As I looked in the Chamber where I had spent so many hours, I just got that excited feeling again. I had learned and heard and experienced so much here. It was so exciting. It’s what I love. 

    On that note, I wanted to share something I spent a good deal of time thinking about during the session. And that is summed up here: Obama is NOT the devil. Or, at least, I really doubt it. I’ve argued this for a long time. Though I’m a conservative Republican, I really believe that Pres. Obama is trying to do what he deems most right and prudent for our nation based on his values. Do I disagree with the vast majority of his decisions? Yes. Do I have very different values? Yes. Do I believe that he has been underhanded and dishonest? Most likely. But he is still a person and I don’t feel comfortable demonizing another child of God. People are people. They deserve our respect and our love merely for being another child of God. 

    I just hate it when people demonize politicians merely because they are politicians. I was really disappointed by how often I heard people upset about a vote or policy decision who, instead of writing to a politician to explain their position and asking to visit with them, would demonize this politician and assure them that they were completely out of touch with their constituency. Being a Utah State Representative or Senator is, truly, a thankless job that (surprise!) gets paid very little. 

    On the other hand, there were often very concerned constituents who clearly did not understand the political process. Should these people be brushed aside and mocked for their lack of political know-how? Absolutely not! The need for respect and understanding goes both ways. The duty of a Representative or Senator is to represent these people and help them through the political process. Very few people have the time, energy, or interest to understand politics; but their concerns about their government are no less valid. 

House Minority Leader Jen Seelig and Speaker of the House  Becky Lockhart
    While in the Utah House of Representatives, I was so impressed by the extensive cooperation, consideration, and respect shown between Representatives of different parties, seniority, religions, and backgrounds. House leadership listened to freshmen legislators and Republicans met with Democrats. Disagreements were kept civil. The Speaker summed it up the last night of the session when, addressing the Democratic minority, she said, “We want to hear from you - we just don’t want to vote [with] you.” 

    Civility, respect, and love for our fellow men. It can happen in politics, too. I promise. Can we please try?

P.S. Perhaps we could get more good people to run for office if they knew they weren’t going to constantly have their character and family attacked?